I am currently watching Surviving The Cut. It's a show about military special forces schools and how difficult they are. It's nuts these schools are soooooo physically demanding, not only are they physically demanding but they're also mentally tough. The percentage of men who make it through these schools is very low meaning only the best of the best (it takes a lot of work to even make to the school in the first place) make it. When a man who isn't cut out for it drops out or particularly when they are removed from training by the instructors they look so down trodden. Some of them cry.
It's very hard to work hard for something and realize you can't do it. I am currently struggling with "I. Can't. Do. It." What do I want to do with my life? "I don't knowwwwwwwwwwww!" is what I'm screaming at myself. Why does my knee hurt so badly? because of things beyond my control. I'm mad at myself and it's hard. I'm making major life plan changes. I do actually know what I would love to major in and I would have done it if there was any possibility of being able to support myself with a degree in History. I'm now looking at the next best thing: a degree in Social Studies Education. I love history, I love government, I love kids, and the job security as a teacher, while not as good as it is with other degrees, is far superior to a plain History degree. I will keep you posted on how this turns out. I'm going to finish my General Education Requirements next semester and then figure it out. I will probably still be graduating a year after my entering class. Although, sometimes people need more than 4 years to finish an undergrad degree.
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